Tired, somewhat.
I
just (s)napped and went to sleep for 2 hour in the middle of the day. A leisure
I can now afford as I only have classes in the morning. Which is a good thing
because I am still having too much fun and sleeping 5-6 hours per night and I
kind of need a bit more. With the attitude and overload of carbs. Every day
seem two be a package comprised of two mini fun filled days. I believe the
stimulation from meeting so much new persons makes it seem that way. Had a
real, fun, deep and educated conversation in the afternoon and a fun lively
moment in the evening, with different people (some of which where the same).
Yeah! |
Just
typed in the date, as I had to save the file, and I have had a hard time
believing it is still February. Some people I haven’t seen for 5 days and it
seems like two weeks.
My body has now become accustomed by some
regards. Nights do not feel as cold as before. A roomie, which has a medical
background, told me my blood simply became thicker and is now transporting more
red cells. Somehow I find myself happy about it. Like yeah I am stronger! But I
am actually no more stronger than our simple ability to adapt. There will be a
few days in June where I’ll be fit for high altitude in lower altitude and
probably have fun thinking I am like San Goku profiting from the differences in
environments. Kind of like on another planet, with different gravities.
Having fun with beliefs |
The
management of time is becoming a real object I have to issue. It would seem I
have so many options, so much things to do. The “problem” being I started doing
them. Between writing and music. I’ll have to solve it fast or I will become
tired of repeating myself. This is the very path that lead me to quit that
friggin “master” program. I was unhappy repeating why I was not ok everyday and
explaining the big con that was that formation. I am happy I did leave it. Kind
of like not finishing a plate of unhealthy bad tasting food full of poison, it
is hard if you have been taught to finish your plate. So I felt locked by it,
each time having a frustrated and mental answer to “how are you?”.
Know
that I am fine (considering I’m not enlightened or anything, I feel very good).
But I do not care for repeating myself (he says again;-) so I will make “time
room” for my artistic appetite.
Had
a weird reaction last night when I shared about my creating music, People
laughed when I said I did not yet earn music, and some seemed somewhat confused
by my answer that it is my work. Know that I will make some money of it at one
point. Of course money is a very direct way of adding value to something, but
it is by no means a guarantee. I had some music with me (on headphones) but
they declined to listen. In a paradoxical way it simply made more grateful for
those who would not hesitate to partake.
That's my kind of wall! |
Infiltrating
large groups of recently met people is very interesting (going back to the
people behaving in a very bland way in group compared to the potential for free
potential in intimate conditions) all sorts of classical interactions. It is
very savory to shake things up, makes me think of like Joseph mouton (and now,
of course, I feel a yearning for one of his books. Only 12 books with me from
Switzerland!!! Yikes it is few. Hehe.) He would say “légers tremblements du
cadre” I would translate into “slight frame quakes”.
He
would then express the fact that you cannot take on frontally the construction
of perception of reality as a whole, but you can quake slightly it’s frame.
You
know the feeling: everything seems to compress, as if the moment you are living
is inviting other moments, and they would be looking over your shoulder like so
many doctors curious of a rare affectation. Those moments know so much more
than you, when in truth you are one and only incarnated in the reality you are
experiencing. None other can be better in living your life than yourself. Of
course others care (in both ways) but it is insane to believe someone would
care about you as much as you. One must simply live his path, unable to escape
his own incarnation. Unwilling to, nobody can ever take another’s space. Sky is
for everybody. Time is for everyone. You are the one master of your life, it
takes a life to live itself, you can’t live two lives. Hence quite simply
nobody can live your life. It is yours freely a gift from your soul.
Yeah
so as I was saying last yesterday was fun;-)
The other night as I was walking back a dog
came up and grasped my laces with his mouth. Was quite adamant about them too!
So I played with him a bit, mostly walking with a weight and turning left
right. When I wanted to leave him be, I sat at a bench and waited. a Peruvian
man came up to me to “do something” and the dog caught his laces instead. We freed the dog from his interest and
walked a bit. The dog obviously meant no harm, well maybe to my laces, they
were very well “tied” after that.
I
have to leave but there is some fun stuff coming up!
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